I still don't know why I continue to blog, but since I do continue for now, I will say this: Maybe it is more constructive to confide in the therapist in the middle of a very embarrassing sort of crisis than it would be to hide it from him. I have confided now and so we will see what develops.

I don't imagine I will still post here for much longer. I know I think differently from my supposed 'fellows', who are brainwashed by NIMH and other such druggie drones. Nor do I cotton to the 'mindfulness' (mindlessess) a-holes. I have come too far away from these sorts of things for such contact to help me. I have even quit smoking cigarettes without gaining weight or adopting any substitutions. These are the reasons I don't post much anymore. I know what the mainstream is and things are just too different for me now and I know almost no one would understand.