I wonder if there would be some kind of freak out in here if I went ahead and asked the therapist to make the sleep recording? On the one hand I'm wondering what I have to lose by trying. On the other hand I know that no matter how bad things seem, they could probably still be worse.
Regular readers, do you have an opinion? Any of you who have followed my relationship with my therapist and are familiar with Rambo, what do you think? Of course, I will have to make the decision myself, but I am taking a poll here.
1. The Little Girl loves the therapist and experiences him as being a mother to her. Sleep does not happen at night. The Little Girl is afraid and wants her mother.
2. Rambo gets pissy when people say certain 'therapist things' like medication, present moment, and other shit that is useless in here in a crisis. And he is the protector and remembers how the therapist hurt the teenage girl.
3. It seems like the old incident with the therapist and the teenage girl has been resolved, but I've thought this before and it doesn't mean that it can't ever get triggered again. Though I have to say, I can't imagine him doing any repeat of the old incident.
If you had to guess, will Rambo freak out if the therapist has this kind of access in here? Like I said, I will make my own decision. No one is responsible in any way for their opinion on this matter. I'm just curious what my bloggies think about this. I'm thinking maybe I should let the therapist make the sleep recording. Do you think Rambo might allow it, or might he freak out and take over? What do you think?
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Being the protector is a job I wouldn't want. Rambo can be very cool and calm and helpful. But it's hard to say how he'd take it when it comes to something he may find threatening to all of you. He really does care. If you can find a way to ask HIM, that would probably be most helpful.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Anon. I did have a conversation with him about it, but it was a one way deal. I didn't hear from him or feel him in any way in response. I'm not sure if that means he has no issue with it right now, or if it means he's not here. I find it hard to believe he's not here, so maybe I cannot hear from him because I can't find Jenny. She is the connector and she is missing. I'm trying to think up ways I might get her back. I get nervous if she's gone for too long. I start wondering if she could die without me knowing.
ReplyDeleteWell... I wonder if the therapist might be able to talk to Rambo about it...
ReplyDeleteMy therapist has sometimes had specific messages for different parts... usually she just talks and I just listen, I don't know what (if any) the results were until a few hours or days later.
Maybe if the therapist explained to Rambo what the tape was about... acknowledged Rambo's concerns himself. Then Rambo can let the little girl have her tape because he'll know its not meant to harm?
I would be afraid to bring out the wrath of Rambo... seems dangerous.
-e
(oh... and I don't think Jenny could die without you knowing. I don't think its possible.)
ReplyDeletemaybe rambo is being quiet because he is thinking on it. maybe you will get an answer in a few days. let it sink in a bit, and keep checking in.
ReplyDeleteif there is no response, i'd say go ahead. maybe he doesn't want to "allow" it as such, but doesn't want to not have it happen either.
Is there any way Rambo can have an "advance listening session"? In other words, he listens to the tape and gets to approve whether Jenny actually hears it or not?
ReplyDeleteMy T has done several "relaxation" recordings for me - directly onto my MP3 player. A few she made me she read chapters out of a book - a good one I really liked was from the book, "The Zen Path thru Depression" http://www.amazon.com/Zen-Path-Through-Depression/dp/0060654465/ref=sr_1_4?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1250108822&sr=1-4
ReplyDeleteTBH - there are times when I just want to hear her voice - and she could be reading the flippin' newspaper - it wouldn't matter!!! But let me also add, I have those angry parts too, who will NOT accept comfort from her no matter what - and in those times, I don't find them helpful. However, the 5 year old LOVES them...it's almost like a "bedtime" story thing for her (OMG! I'm almost crying just typing this!!! i'm such a freak!) I think if you communicate to your T that there will be times Rambo may be pissed off about it - then maybe he can say some things on the recording "to" Rambo to help him, maybe gain his "acceptance" a bit (just a thought).
She recently asked me if I wanted another recording - but suggested that I script it for her...(? - I'm still thinking about that one)but throwing it out there if you want to use it.
3 years ago she also made me a CD of music that I still listen too and really like.
She offered to do these MONTHS before I would even allow myself to accept the offer.
K - I've probably said enuf about that. CLIFF NOTES: I have several recordings and more often than not, find them helpful. :-)
Hope that helps some...
~ Gracie
Oh - if you want any other info about what my T did for me - you can always email me and I'm happy to share...I'm also happy that your T wants to help you with this...(even tho I'm pissed at my own DT right now (irrationally) for taking a freakin' vacation! - The nerve!)
ReplyDeleteAsk Rambo, since he is the protector get him to buy off on it. I think it would really help.
ReplyDeleteI think you should have him make a sleep recording. If it will help the little girl to sleep that is important. I don't know, Rambo might freak out, but maybe if things are explained to him he won't freak out as bad.
ReplyDeleteA "sleep recording" as in the therapist recording something for you to listen in the night time?
ReplyDeleteI really like the idea. While there have had incidents in the past and might have again in the future, it seems that you do trust your therapist at some deeper level.
And I suspect that's what ultimately matters to Rambo.
Yes, it is to listen to to go to sleep.
ReplyDeleteI think maybe I do want the recording.
Get the recording. You still dont have to play it.
ReplyDeleteSo rather than make the question should you get the recording, make it should you play the recording?
ie you have it there if needs be.