I never thought I would post about such a thing, but you know the five pounds I used to bitch about having lost back in December 2005 when my shit first hit the fan? Well, I found them again. At first I was a bit upset at having lost any weight because I didn't need to and I have been too thin in the past. Then, when I couldn't get those five pounds back, I got used to having them gone. I was still in the normal range for BMI, so I just accepted the new weight since it was not unhealthy. Seems that my little foray into beer-land brought me those five pounds back, but now I don't want them anymore. I've decided to ditch them. I know how my body works, so I know it won't take long at all. I have a minimal intra-day fluctuation, and right now is the two weeks leading up to the menstrual cycle. Even that is only a two pound fluctuation. I know what I weigh first thing when I wake up, and I've decided to give myself half of the monthly flux, so I need to lose four pounds. I will make absolutely certain it is not water weight I lose (because I'm not a big retainer and dehydration is very unhealthy). I've managed to make it to 42 with four kids without wrecking my body, so I'm not about to get big now. I'll bet five pounds at a time might be how things like that happen. Time for me to buck up and pay attention.
It doesn't take a rocket scientist to look to a new food or beverage when a few pounds show up, so I checked and noticed that the beer I've been drinking does not label with nutrition information (yeah - not if they actually want to sell any!). Then I went to the Internet. HOLY CRAP. You would not believe the amount of calories and grams of carbs in that stuff! I was stunned. Totally floored. And guess when I drink the beer? Before I go to bed so there is no way to burn it off! Again I say - HOLY CRAP! It's a good thing I have a kick-ass metabolism or we'd be talking about a whole lot more than five measly pounds (and right now I'm remembering two separate nights recently when I ate a candy bar before drinking that stuff!).
I found a website that lists all kinds of beers with nutrition information. Of course the rich, dark beers I like are all loaded up big time with a shocking amount of calories and carb grams. Almost all of them, in fact. I found a couple of very nice exceptions and they are drastically less disgusting. So when I buy beer now, that's what it will be. No more of the gross stuff. And in the meantime there will be no nibbling before bed, no junky food, no butter, and I will not let myself drink coffee when I wake up until I crank up the inner furnace with some Omega 3 fatty acids and food before coffee (this last one should always be, really). I've been really lax with these things for weeks now, and also ingesting ENORMOUS amounts of calories and carbs before bed. No more. I'm guessing around a week until I'm back to the usual weight.
Now I know why so many guys who like beer get all fat with beer bellies and such! Now I get why they are called beer bellies to begin with. It can happen to women, too. Yikes! I can't and WON'T let something like that happen. I'll blog it when the mission has been declared a success.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
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I don't care about beer but unfortunately I'm too full of self loathing to have the "won't power" to resist all the carby crap. I'll just die a beached whale.
ReplyDeleteYou are no beached whale, Lily. I happen to think you are fabulous. I have an idea. I know that other people's food problems are very similar to other issues that I have. It's about comfort. We all need ways to feel good. We really do. It's best for our health if we can feel good, but some of the ways we find are not so good for us. I am not having any beer tonight and I haven't eaten since a late dinner. I have resolved for tonight not to eat until I wake up, so with no beer or snack, I am already thinking of what I will have Friday when I get up. I think I want to blog that meal and share it with everyone. There are many, many good, delicious and nutritious foods that are very beneficial for us both physically and emotionally. I think I will be posting about good food. The kind that can't make us fat.
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And please don't loathe my nice friend Lily. She is a good woman whose body might like to be introduced to some new foods and ways to enjoy them. So don't pick on her, eh? She is not her extra pounds, she is herself.
{{{{{{Lily}}}}}}
Oh the food issues...
ReplyDeleteI've been all over the map/scale with my weight over the years.
I'm 5'10" and I've been as low as 120 and as high as 230...
I'm pretty healthy right now. Not too big, not too small...
I try really hard not to worry about it.
The very thin times have been the result of extreme self deprivation. (e.g. "I will only eat apples and dry whole wheat toast").
The heavy times have been about trying to fill a void, trying to feel ok.
(OMG! How totally textbook am I?!?)
Yeah...
I think the food issues are something that we can all relate to.
It freaks me out sometimes how predictable the patterns of all these issues are...
The more I learn the more I realize that I'm a textbook example of what can happen to a girl who is unfortunate enough to be born into a sick and bad family.
Lynn, I think you're right about finding things that are healthy and feel good to have inside of you.
(My word verification is "esle"...)
-else
Hi, Else. I'm tall, too. I'm almost six feet and I have been as low as 115 pounds. At that time I was much too sick from constant panic attacks to feed myself enough. As a matter of fact, eating was often the thing that caused the panic attack. I got up to 125 fairly quickly once I got some help, but I was still too thin. I was sometimes dimly aware of it and it made me feel like a spectacle. Or a very tall skeleton. I wasn't happy.
ReplyDeleteIt's amazing how much abuse and emotional upset can effect eating.
My weight gets me down at the moment. I lack self control as well so I cant see a way to loose pounds.
ReplyDelete{{{{{{{{Kahless}}}}}}}}
ReplyDeleteMaybe forget the weight and just think about the food? Maybe you can occasionally substitute something healthier (or even just less fatty and caloric) in place of a sweet treat. Maybe the only thing to do right now is to experiment a little bit with new food? Many people think treats must be dumped entirely to eat well. I don't think that's true at all. Such thinking discourages people from improving their eating habits. Maybe you could just make it a goal to try a new fruit or vegetable this weekend. Go to the market and find something that looks attractive to you. That sounds like a really nice thing to do.
Likewise, the only way for me to gain a few pounds is drink/get pregnant.
ReplyDeleteI guess that is "good" since I can't be bothered with anything that requires too much self-discipline, like calories and such.
Most women these days are brainwashed to believe that thin=happy.
Even I catch myself thinking that sometimes, though I KNOW it's not true.