I'm not doing well. I'm trying really hard, but things have been difficult. I haven't slept well for several days, though today I did get a good amount of sleep. It seems the amount is not the real issue. It wasn't a good sleep. Though it felt mostly sound, I woke up a couple of times. I went right back to a fairly sound sleep, but it was what was going on in my mind that disturbed me. I woke up from dreams that I could not recollect, and I woke with some kind of sudden realization that I can no longer remember. I'm exhausted. I have been on the verge of panic all day, and there are things to fuel it all around me. The sound of planes over the house, the sound of dogs barking, children outside talking too loud, a very quick whiff of some kind of pine smell, the scramble-brained feeling, and fear, fear, fear. I'm so tired and I feel like I'm on the edge. I don't want anything horrible to happen to me. I just want to be okay. It's not right that I can't be okay.