I watched TV in the bedroom. I accidentally left it on when I moved to the living room. Then I watched something else in there. Then I left that one on when I went to clean some things in the kitchen. When I came back into the living room, some dumb fucking infomercial about some idiotic CBT program was on the set. Oh, yes. I'm sure that can fix me and I'm just dying to offload a couple grand in exchange for more bullshit. Not. That kind of shit is why I am the way I am. It's a big part of why I can't sleep at night. It's why I have had to suffer so needlessly.
I went back into the bedroom to put some things away and some obese (repressed) religious fundamentalist had taken over the screen. More bullshit.
Been there, done that. Done both of them, done ALL of them. I am alone. I am truly alone in this for the most part. And I'm so very glad. Being alone is my favorite way to get an intelligent conversation going. Because most people are profoundly stupid. Never in my life have I been more glad to be alone. I truly mean that. I couldn't mean it more. It's the only peace I have. That and talking to my husband. And for anyone out there who is dyslexic and feels inferior because of it -- my husband is dyslexic and he is FAR from stupid. He is the main person I have in my life who gets it. Being dyslexic is not the same as being stupid and to hell with anyone who thinks it is. They only think that because they are average (mildly retarded and can't understand). I pity the fools.
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That's odd that they would run infomercials at night trying to drum up business since all the assholes with dbt induced insomia are already enrolled.
ReplyDeleteI'm dyslexic and know NOW that I'm not stupid. Used to believe I was because that is what I was told. I hate labels people put on others.
ReplyDeleteI don't want to be average either. I used to wish it with all my heart, becasue then people would accept me. But what kind of society is it that rejects and judges it's smartest and most talented people and treats them with emotional abuse and stigma? Average people fit in, in a sea of mediocrity.
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone. Good and healing thoughts to you.
Kate