I Remember

One of the twins asked for guitar lessons this morning. I was a bit surprised since she has lessons in music class at school. I asked her how that is going and she said that it's good, it's just that she wants to be a really, really good guitar player. One of the best ever. Oh, I can certainly understand this. I admire it, too. But... why do we need guitar lessons from an outside source when her father is a professional musician who still gets gigs, a lead guitarist and vocalist who lives right here in the house with us (and has been known to give the occasional guitar lesson)?? That's easy, Mommy. Daddy doesn't know how to read music! There are things he can't teach me. It's true. He doesn't read music. He is one of those freakishly gifted people who can just go with it and have it somehow come out right. Works just fine for a metal-head.
:-) And sounds kick-ass, too!

Mommy DOES read music. I know, Mommy, but you don't play guitar. True enough. Yeah, I guess this baby is going to get guitar lessons. I know a dream when I hear one. I had a dream once. You know how kids in really shitty homes dream of running away and joining the circus? Well, I had a dream of taking my French horn and running away to join the symphony orchestra. Yes, I was a bit of a nerd, but I also had first chair in the horn section at the middle school and played the French horn solo for the high school production of Peter and The Wolf while still in middle school (the local high school's horn section had been laid to waste by Mononucleosis). And so I dreamed... Could I pretend to be a grown-up and secure a chair in the symphony? That dream kept me alive when things were bad. I dreamed that I could do it. I didn't, of course. Trauma took me over. But my baby doesn't have that problem. If she wants to be the best guitar player she can possibly be, no matter what she decides to do with it, then so be it. She will get her lessons. And she will get her dream guitar, too.



And me? I'm finally going to sleep. Perchance to dream.


Maybe this time it will be a good dream.