I went somewhere tonight that had nothing to do with buying groceries. I just came back from Tampa, where the husband and I met Grace for a late dinner. It was fabulous! She's just like I thought - real, smart, and lovely. I was immediately comfortable with her and we had a great time. I feel so normal right now after enjoying a night like that with her and the husband. I wish I could feel like this more often. I ate without thinking icky things about food or being attacked by thoughts of impending doom. I wasn't thinking about diseases or that I might be ill - I wasn't even stressed out to be 40 minutes from home! I was totally comfortable. I didn't feel bad in any way. Wow. That doesn't happen much. I love my pal, Grace. I know she gets me and totally understands what I deal with. What a relief! It's the kind of relief I can actually feel in my body. Usually, anything I feel in my body (except drunkenness) makes me want to run like hell. But not tonight. It was nice to be with someone with whom I have certain things in common and not feel like I have to be on my guard lest I slip up and say or do something odd. Grace is more than just Good Enough, Grace is good people. Loving her reminds me that I'm good people, too (pun totally intended).
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Can you believe it? I finally got to meet a blog buddy and it was a buddy whose blog made me feel like I had somehow accidentally stumbled upon myself in the blogosphere! She likes me just how I am and I like her the same.
Thank you, Grace! It was a very special treat to meet you in person and spend some time with you and I hope we get to do it again sometime. You're a lovely lady and I'm honored to have you as my friend. {{{{{{{{Grace}}}}}}}}
Special Note: Blog Pals, quick! Run over to Harriet's post and write three good things about yourself in the comments. Harriet is trying to think of good things about herself as therapy homework and could use an example. She is a lovely soul, but she's having trouble seeing it. Sound familiar? Sure it does! But I bet you can think of three good things about yourself if it would help Harriet do the same. (And yes, that fact alone counts as one of the good things about you. Everything good about you counts.) Come on, Bloggies, help a lady out. I know you can do it because I have the best blog buds ever!
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I'm glad you had a good time with Grace!! :) Hope you have more of those experiences every chance you can!
ReplyDeleteLynn, I am blessed to have stumbled upon *you* in this blog world. The connection I felt with you in 'writing' was there ~ and to actually meet you, sit with you, share with you in person, it was amazing. Not a minute of 'uncomfortable' silence...funny, I also had a good night last night. In a hotel, across the country from the comfort of my home...and after our departure, I felt a sense of peace, and a feeling of calmness that does not often happen for me at night. There was no crying, no *bad place* last night.
ReplyDeleteIt was great!!!!
Thankful for you....
~Grace
ZOMG! So jealous! Of both of you!
ReplyDeleteFunny enough, I remember when I first started reading Grace, I thought, "Wow. Lynn would really dig this."
Maybe I should become a bloggy buddy match-maker so that I can start taking credit for my harebrained ideas.
I'm also jealous - I would love to meet my blogging pals one day! You guys are so great, I'm glad you found each other.
ReplyDeleteLynn, thank you so much for writing about me on your blog. People have been stopping by and telling me good things about themselves and even about me! I am so touched, I can't believe that everyone is taking the time to do this for me. You guys know stuff about me that no one else in the world knows, things I've always been afraid to tell people because I was sure they would freak out, or be repulsed, or hate me. But my blogging friends aren't doing that, they are actually sticking by me and supporting me. It's not what I ever expected, and I'm so touched. Thank you.
your post made me smile. so happy for you!
ReplyDeleteI hope so, too, LC.
ReplyDeleteGrace, I have to say I felt just the same about no uncomfortable silences. I can't think of the last time there were no uncomfortable silences when I was one of the parties in a conversation. It was so nice sharing that time with you. Who'da thunk I can talk faster than I type?
Superla! You totally knew I would dig it! I think you would be a really good match-maker.
Harriet, you are so welcome. I know why your blog buddies stay and support you after you told them all about yourself. It's because you told them all about yourself! Now they know you and so they know there are lots of good things about you. I will bet you anything that you will show up to your next appointment with something good about you. I just know it.
Thank you, Else.
I am jealous.
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