Today has been an anxious one because of the crap with the husband in the last post. I didn't sleep as well as I have been and I've felt sick all day. His stuff effectively derailed my progress and good feelings. I'm starting to feel very angry with him now. As much as I understand where his stuff comes from, I also see how it is self-serving and opposes my own recovery. Like I said, this is an old issue and I feel the need to come up with something that does not leave my own wellness relying on his. I've suggested therapy, but he won't take care of himself in that way because he would then have to recognize that a problem exists. He just wants what he wants (avoidance and life in a pig sty). The only thing I can think of now is to just detach for my own good. I will have to move the work ahead without him. No matter what, I will not let my home continue to be a place that makes me come unglued. I tried to get started fixing the bedrail, but I can't do it alone as one of the bolts is in very tight. The head is also round and embedded in the wood and I do not have a tool that can grip it. I guess I will try to gather my strength and move on to something else and tomorrow I will call a handyman and explain the situation with the bolt in the bedrail. All I need is the fucking bolt gone.