Thursday, October 23, 2008

I'm so fucking depressed. All it takes is for trading to wane and then my attention gets drawn to other things. I don't like that. I feel like I have no energy again. I feel like shit. My husband is in a pissy mood. The kids have been bickering with him again. He won't even empty his pockets before he puts his pants in the hamper after years of me asking him to, so I'm not doing his laundry anymore. I told him that and now it's like he's twelve. THIS is when I wish I could write again. Maybe I will. Work, drink, pills, books, writing... I guess I'm just one of those people who will always need to be consumed by one of those things. Drink and pills are off the table and work is stalled. I've been reading a little again, but that doesn't seem like enough right now... and the dark is coming early again.
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  1. UnknownOctober 23, 2008 at 10:55 PM

    (((Hugs)))

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  2. UnknownOctober 24, 2008 at 1:16 AM

    I'm trying not to be depressed about my computer being comatose. The technician is working on it, but of course I'm not his only customer. I've been too brain dead to really FEEL what I write anyway. It sucks. I guess we're too dependent on external factors. But I don't know any other way to be!

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  3. EnolaOctober 24, 2008 at 11:41 AM

    (((hugs)))

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  4. J.A. CoppingerOctober 24, 2008 at 1:26 PM

    "The dark is coming early again . . ."

    That's a good line to start some writing off, don't you think? I always found random writing helped much more when I was down than structured story work.

    Just riff whatever you can off of that for twenty quick minutes. It ALWAYS made me feel better.

    Of course, you have to show us what you write! :-)

    Later!

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  5. KahlessOctober 24, 2008 at 4:00 PM

    I dont know what to say.
    Hang in there friend.
    xx.

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  6. Ethereal HighwayOctober 25, 2008 at 2:35 AM

    Hugs right back to you, my dear Kelli!! Great big bear hugs!!

    Hi, Lily. I know what you mean. I do know another way to be, but it flat out sucks. I guess I'll just keep this way. I hope you get your computer fixed soon. I know how frustrating that is!

    Aw, Enola. You have nice hugs. Right back at ya, too!

    Jim, I LOVE the writing prompt! Only one question. You've been reading here for a long time. What on Earth might have given you the idea that my stories are structured? (Insert crazy laughter here.) I wish. Ooooh, how I wish.

    I'm hanging, K. Hanging on in. Thanks for stopping by. Friday was a little bit better than Thursday. Maybe the weekend will be okay, too. I can only hope. And work my to-do list. :-)

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  7. AmandaOctober 25, 2008 at 9:20 AM

    Me too. Do you have a SAD-lamp? It helps a little.

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  8. Ethereal HighwayOctober 28, 2008 at 12:16 AM

    My sad lamp is broken.
    :-(

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