Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Get Off Me

Therapy tonight. I haven't been able to sleep. So I drank (not unusual). I still can't sleep. I don't want to go. Maybe I won't. New Guy is nice and all, but really he is just a therapist. I need something more than some sort of advisor or whatever, you know? Plus, it is hard to trust certain things in certain ways. I can't explain publicly right now, but that's just the way it is for me. People lie. They pretend and they lie. And they hurt people. And I don't understand why I can't just stay right here and drown. I'm finally too tired and I don't want anyone to save me. I want everyone to just get off me, leave me alone and let me go. STOP PRETENDING TO CARE. JUST GET OFF ME.

3 comments:

  1. Sometimes I don't know about therapist. I have real trust issues. I can relate to how you are feeling. (((((((EH))))))))

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  2. (((((((Lynn)))))))

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  3. I could've written this. But Im not pretending. I do care! Today I listened to the peer of two and I cried.

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