Thanks, all of you who came around when I've been feeling so bad. Right now I'm mostly a mix of relief and a tad bit of puzzlement. I'm trying not to let that last part make me feel scared again. Now that I have a little bit of relief I would like to just enjoy it if I can. New Guy called and we straightened things out. He emailed me, too. Just reading the very kind messages he sent makes me feel better. I ate a real dinner. Even though my husband cooked it. And he wants to keep driving me to therapy. I'm going to let him. And now I'm hoping to lie down and rest for a few minutes with the hub and think of all the things New Guy said to me so I can rest and actually not be alone and in pain and terror while doing it. Maybe I will explain a little more about what happened in a bit. Or not, since it's kind of mushy. I'm just glad to not feel so very awful as I did. That was pure hell.