I don't feel good. I spent too much time with tax forms, I get VERY uptight sometimes when it comes to money and the whole freaking thing has nearly brought me to tears. As usual. And then my husband reminded me that I always overreact when it comes to money (yes, I'm very cheap and I worry too much, but I have to or we would be broke because he doesn't worry much at all).

To top it all, today is the day I tell Old Guy that I only want to talk to him every other week. I'm afraid and I don't know if I can do it or what will happen if I can. I'm trying to think of New Guy right now because I feel afraid. I know he will help me. I trust him and I haven't been afraid to tell him things because I'm not worried that he will be mean to me. He's not mean. But the Little Girl still wants what she wants and I don't know what will happen. I'm trying to go to sleep, but there is the crying place. It hurts me. I know what the Little Girl wants, but right now I want New Guy. I'm glad I was able to talk to him about what's going on with this. Still... I worry, I hurt, I need to sleep and I have no friggin' idea what will happen after I wake up. None at all. I just don't want to wake up and BE her. Please not that. I'm afraid to go to sleep.