Monday, September 7, 2009
Scotty, one to beam up.
I've been struggling, though I'm a bit better off than I have been. The 'seasonal mix-up' is here. The light is changing and it brings fear. I wish I knew why, but I can't really be sure about that aspect of the problem. There are many possibilities. Who am I kidding, eh? Yeah. The fear comes from little girl things. Ye Olde Hometown comes to mind. And winter, cold, clouds, sky, light, leaves, darkness, dingy days, scary nights... it's pretty much a mindfuck. Food issues abound and I can feel the crying going on inside without me when I have to eat. Body things. Feelings. I don't really want them as they are quite difficult to tolerate. I prefer the sky of my photos, the high and non-scary ones that are far above the tree tops where I kissed the Earth's atmosphere with my lens. This is the free place. Sometimes it's the only real relief I have.
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I hear you...I too have felt like I was in a better place today. And I know your correspondance played a part in that.
ReplyDeleteTonight, as darkness falls, I too hear the crying, and the body issues beginning.
Your pictures are beautiful. I used to travel every week for work - and I would look out the window of the airplance, at the clouds and the land below, and I would think about how small I really am...and how beautiful things look from 30K feet.
That's how I prefer to look at my feelings...from 30K feet. It doesn't hurt as much...
I hope you find your 'free place' tonight, Lynn.
In friendship and solidarity - Grace
{{{{{{{{Grace}}}}}}}}
ReplyDeleteYour pictures are beautiful. I,m glad you can find some comfort in the sky. Hoping the night will not be bad tonight.
ReplyDeleteI like that sky too.
ReplyDeleteI have reverse SAD. My difficulties hit in the spring. To me spring is supposed to be a time of renewal but it seems to spit in my face and tell me how I've failed yet again.
Perhaps you could get a sun lamp? Those seem to help some folks.
Beautiful photos. I'm sorry this time of year is difficult. I'm not sure if seasons affect me, I'll have to give that some thought. It makes sense that they would though.
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