Something is setting me off inside, but I'm a very controlled mess.

Between planning a mutiny in therapy, and threatening abandonment of both my body and whoever or whatever manufactures hypochondria and/ or illness, it's been a bad night. When I finally felt my body shut up its stupid whining, I felt a little guilty and asked Jenny to tell me what was going on. Jenny is the body connection. I think she serves as a connection to other things, too, but that's a whole other blog post. Anyway, Jenny can't talk. She communicates with songs (among other things - whole other blog post). When I ask her a question, she drops a song into my head. So... I did it - I asked her. "So... Jenny, what's going on. What say you?" The bit that dropped into my head was, "I think we're alone now, the beating of our heart is the only sound." So what does this mean? I had already successfully abandoned my body? Of course, I did what Jenny expects me to do, and I located the video and the lyrics. I posted the lyrics after the video. The words made me cry right away. Not really, though. I mean - sure, water came out of my eyes for a minute, and for a split second it was a good thing that I was not standing on top of a tall building, but outside of that - I didn't feel too much. Now I just want the song to shut up. I'm thinking I should go to bed soon. That's hard when I am alternating between leaky eyeballs and the urge to grab my ball bat and start smashing the hell out of things. I have no idea what's going on, but I don't think I can keep my therapy appointment for Wednesday. I am NOT a happy fucking camper and there's no telling what could happen. I don't like that. It doesn't seem smart or safe to me. It just doesn't.




written by Ritchie Cordell
Originally recorded by Tommy James and the Shondelles (1967)
Also recorded by Tiffany (1986)

Children behave,
That's what they say when we're together,
And watch how you play,
They don't understand,
And so we're,
Running just as fast as we can,
Holdin' onto one another's hand,
Tryin' to get away into the night,
And then you put your arms around me,
And we tumble to the ground,
And then you say,
I think we're alone now,
There doesn't seem to be anyone around.
I think we're alone now,
The beating of our hearts is the only sound.
Look at the way,
We gotta hide what we're doin'.
'Cause what would they say,
If they ever knew and so we're,
Running just as fast as we can,
Holdin' onto one another's hand,
Tryin' to get away into the night,
And then you put your arms around me,
And we tumble to the ground,
And then you say,
I think we're alone now,
There doesn't seem to be anyone around.
I think we're alone now,
The beating of our hearts is the only sound.
I think we're alone now,
There doesn't seem to be anyone around.
I think we're alone now,
The beating of our hearts is the only sound.
Running just as fast as we can,
Holdin' onto one another's hand,
Tryin' to get away into the night,
And then you put your arms around me,
And we tumble to the ground,
And then you say,
I think we're alone now,
There doesn't seem to be anyone around.
I think we're alone now,
The beating of our hearts is the only sound.
I think we're alone now,
There doesn't seem to be anyone around.
I think we're alone now,
The beating of our hearts is the only sound.
I think we're alone now, (alone now)
There doesn't seem to be anyone around.
I think we're alone now,(alone now)
The beating of our hearts is the only sound.
I think we're alone now,(alone now)
There doesn't seem to be anyone around.
I think we're alone now,(alone now)
The beating of our hearts is the only sound.
I think we're alone now,(alone now)...
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