1. I have no more beer pounds. They're all gone.
2. I have no more beer, either. I decided to ditch the shit.
3. Now I realize why I wanted to drink beers at night.
4. Memory threatens.
5. There have been nightmares with no beer.
6. Oh, well. I guess there will be nightmares. I refuse to let what other people did make me doped, overweight, or drunk. Fuck that bunch of losers. Such worthless slime doesn't get a say.
7. If my mother ever calls here again, I will hang up in her face. Hopefully, I'll be able to belch the word 'bitch' first. That would be fun.
8. I am reading CJ Box's 'Free Fire'. It's pretty good.
9. Last night I ordered a whole mess of novels for me and the kids.
10. This morning I emailed the therapist and cancelled the email that cancelled my appointments.
11. I guess maybe I will go back to being a slave to being extra busy for a while. That way lies extra profit. Nothing wrong with that.
Sounds we are at a similar wavelength this moment.
ReplyDeleteMaybe that's why I eat. To suppress my emotions. I'm afraid I get triggered by the word "fat." I'm trying not to. I do wish I could be defined by my soul rather than my body.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure if that is a good or bad thing for you, Amanda. I hope you are not being hounded by stuff, but I guess it's probably best not to fend it off with certain things. I don't know.
ReplyDeleteHi, Lily. I think too much eating, drinking and all those similar things are emotion driven. Sometimes to suppress, sometimes to find comfort? And I certainly did not mean fat as in describing a person as fat. To me, using the word that way refers to carrying excess body fat in proportion to muscle mass. I am changing it right now, though. I do not want to hurt you or any struggling survivor. And I love your soul. There is nothing wrong with loving the body, too. I think the body needs love the most when it needs some kind of healing.
{{{{{{Lily}}}}}}
EH - good for you with the beer pounds gone!! I hope you can find peaceful sleep with no nightmares soon.
ReplyDeleteHave I told you lately how strong you are? Just thought I would, in case it's been a while. :) Happy Saturday, my friend!
I'm laughing at # 7. I hope you can do that too.
ReplyDeleteYour mother is a bitch.
ReplyDeleteI really like #6. You are strong!
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