I finally installed the camera software into the new computer Wednesday evening. I was inspired by a somewhat strange appointment with the shrink. Anybody else ever procrastinate some simple, easy, and necessary things only to be inspired by oddness? Seriously. When really small things make my to-do list, it is indicative of a problem. For instance, I had it on my list to get my camera software, some old writings and notes I kept on floppy disks, and the external floppy drive, and bring them all out into the kitchen where I sit with the laptop. Those things have been on the list for days and I have not done them (fear of creativity). It took less than five minutes to do it, and I finally did it while I was on the phone with the therapist. He asked me how I felt after doing it. The truth was, I felt kind of shaky. Then I remembered that I had not eaten. Yeah, sometimes I procrastinate that. I joked with him that I should put it on my list to eat food. Then I decided to just eat something right then instead. So I did. I installed the camera software later on.

You know what I realized? When I start thinking about using my creativity, my to-do list becomes quite long. I mean, really -- how can I possibly write when I have a huge list I should be doing, right? That would be irresponsible. But then, I really do have things that need to come first. I think I need to work on which things can wait, or maybe I need to get better at realizing when I am trying sabbotage more than I'm trying to get things done. Or -- no. I couldn't do that. Could I? Could I put writing on my to-do list? I wonder what kind of backlash that would cause before I even realize that there is any. Hmmm...

Anyway, I opened the word processor, stared at a blank page, then realized that I need to make a new to-do list. Now that I see what that's about, I figured I might as well come on here and tell the whole world.

Happy Thanksgiving, y'all!



p.s. Guess what? "Charge camera battery" is on the new to-do list I made. You guys want to stand in for the shrink for a minute while I plug in the charger and put the battery in it? Hang on. I'll be right back.
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Well, that was interesting. I always keep it in the same place. I do have some vague idea that I have handled it recently, but I can't find it. New item on list: Find charger for camera battery. I guess I'd better start thinking where I would have put it if I tried to hide it from myself. I hope it's somewhere safe. I'll let you know.